Cut throat world of retail pharmacy

I started my new job in retail pharmacy on June 21st. Since then, I've been shadowing the other staff members on the daily duties from helping customers pick up their prescription, filling in production, doing some data entry when customers drop off prescriptions from doctors, all the while trying to complete all my online training modules which really bores the hell out of me.

The other technicians have been helpful, and as much as I try not to bother them too much by asking questions, I don't want to risk making any mistakes and looking like a fool in front of everyone.

So far, the pharmacists I've been working with are patient enough to coach me on other things. All but one pharmacists who seem to be very dismissive and come off as they don't want to be bothered when you have a question. I thought it's just maybe they're having a bad day or just overwhelmed during the busy hours; but there have been a lot of incidents during the two weeks I've worked where I would ask a question and they would just walk away as if they didn't hear me.

That said, I try to steer clear from this particular pharmacist and ask someone else nearby. I figured, it's still too early to determine if this person is just who they are or it's something personal against me. I'm not going to stress over it, but it's hard to move on when knowing you have to come in to work and they're there and you can't avoid them.

I just have to power through and maybe I can convince the other lead pharmacist to make me a floater and work at other branches and eventually do well in one of them that I'll be able to transfer.

A fellow technician colleague and friend once told me that retail pharmacy is very cut-throat. And she wasn't lying. I'm not really intimidated by it; it's just that I've been known to be a sassy-bitch, and I don't want to show my true colors just yet because I'm trying to secure this job and get as much experience I can. I just can't believe that rudeness from a staff member who is supposed to be professional and helpful to a new hire like me that needs training would act as if they can't be bothered at all.

Whatever, bitch! As if!

Don't impose

I can hear two guys who happen to be friends making plans where to go eat lunch. One of them expresses their interest in wanting to check out this new Korean BBQ place that just opened up and his other friend seem to be excited to check it out as well.

From what I know, this 3rd guy - who is a co-worker of theirs is a vegetarian because of his religion. But seeing that he's trying so hard for people to like him even in the workplace, he overhears the other two talking about making plans for lunch that he jumps in and decides to impose and invites himself with them.

That feeling of awkwardness then ensues from the two guys. Not knowing what to say. They decided to change their plans to check out the new Korean BBQ place and go someplace where they serve vegetarian food for the sake of this 3rd wheel who has no tack, whatsoever!

Please get the hint. If you're not invited - don't impose on others!

As if!

Random text

Went to bed early last night around 10:40pm. I was sound asleep and having a good dream about having an office meeting and addressing some issues that need to be called upon.

I end up waking up at around 3:30am to go to the bathroom. I guess I had too much iced tea last night and I usually don't go to bed with a dry mouth so I keep it moist...plus the lack of moisture in my bedroom sucks which reminds me to get a humidifier.

I try to go back to bed and I get a random text from someone saying to "back the hell off my girlfriend!"

So I replied back, "wrong person, please check the number and try again." Hoping that would do the trick. But the guy kept texting me telling me to "back the hell off". Finally I said, "I ain't interested in her and all women that way, so please leave me the fuck alone!" and before I could let him text back, I said, "once I find out who this is, I'll make sure YOU back the hell off!"

As if.

Crush

So there's this guy. He seems really nice and easy to talk to, but every time he corners me into a private conversation, I start to blush and get flustered. I think it has to do with him putting his arm around me in a "buddy / bro-mance" sort of way as he speaks softly into my ear.

Yes, I'm aware that he's straight. But do straight dudes do that often with their fellow straight dude friends? I don't even know if he's aware that I bat for the rainbow express or not. I know for sure he's gay-friendly because he's stated before that gays don't bother him. (Maybe he's bi?) So, assuming he's aware, whenever there's talk about relationships and dating, he mentions girls and would never ask me if I'm seeing any.

I don't want to let myself get into this spiderweb of awkwardness, but I'm still human. And most of the time, whenever I pass him by or we make eye contact, I just want to kiss his neck and whisper naughty slurs in his ear.

That is all for now.

Stating the obvious

Sometimes I wonder if our office manager ever runs out of things to do. The reason for this is when things get busy towards the last 2 weeks of every month, he will go around and tell us what needs to be done.

Sure, one might think that he's just doing his job and I'm all for it - but the thing is, we all know how to do our job. Nothing has changed since the beginning of the new year. It's almost like routine already. We go through cycles of what needs to be filled in the order they always come in.

By the 15th of every month, we are aware that medications are being ready to be shipped out so they are placed in certain areas where it's easily accessed by our delivery team. Yet, somehow our office manager still continues to instruct us as if we're new employees and we don't know what the hell is supposed to happen next.

I thought all this time, that's all I've been doing. I can't stand having someone breathing behind my back and micro-managing what I'm doing. It affects the workflow and speed of my system, not to mention it gets me irritated to an already crowded work area where there's no consideration for safety or prevent any hazardous casualties from happening.

But I have to keep cool. Or do I dare wait for the other shoe to drop?